Meteora; or One Last Hurrah

So.

Meteora.

Greece, why do you do this to me? Why do you insist on confronting me everywhere I go here with things that leave me awed beyond compare?

I suppose one can get desensitized to beautiful landscapes, I found myself thinking on the train ride up to Kalambaka, where I was staying with Zori, Juliana, and Emma. The Thessalian plain rolled by.

And then. Oh, Meteora – even your name sounds dramatic, and your spires of smooth striated sandstone certainly are. From a distance they seem unreal, bare bone breaking out of the body of the Pindos Mountains, sudden, abrupt, unexpected. Nestled beneath them are Kalambaka and Kastraki, and several pale monasteries perch precariously on their peaks.

That first day, I went rock climbing, with help from Lazaros, the guide. He was great. The ascent? Great! The descent….um, possibly the scariest thing ever, lying parallel to the ground, taking halting, stumbling steps blindly backwards, down the face of the rock, depending wholly on the rope, the bolts, and Lazaros, unseen…

I did it, though! It was exhilarating. A few things I learned, in Lazaros’ words: “Use every rock!” “You climb with your legs.” “Trust the rope!” And upon hearing what I was studying, he beamed. “Bravo! My sister, she studies this.”

The next day, I went hiking. I set out from the hotel at 5:45 AM, when the streetlamps were just switching off. The sky was already lightening, a hazy predawn glow.

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I came to the trail leading up.

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I took the left fork...

I took the left fork…

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There’s conglomerate here and there – a rainbow assemblage I found peculiarly beautiful

I paused and found a perch to get a better view of the sunrise sky, looking back towards Kalambaka.

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The trail continued on; the trees rose up against the rocks…

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I *should* have taken the left fork; I went right, and had to backtrack…

…but not before trying to see if I could find a shortcut, which led to some scrambling and climbing. I stopped to rest, and I could hear the monastery of Aghia Trias, the Holy Trinity, ringing its bells for the hour.

There was no shortcut; I doubled back.

I drank from the trickle of a small clear spring that crossed the trail, and headed up to the main road.

The buses were just starting to arrive when the Roussanou Monastery came into view; I could see them below, rolling laboriously up.

The rest of my day hike is jumbled together; I got some good drawings of the Varlaam Monastery and of Roussanou, and somewhat stupidly decided I would go this way:

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Half-hopping, half-scrambling, I made my way to the shadow of that rock pillar, and farther down to a small stream. I could hear the road passing below Roussanou, far above me. I stood there, indecisive, in the dappled shade amid the growing noonday heat. Go back? Go forwards into the unknown, following the stream in its green-shrouded way? Go up the slope to the road, a known destination, the way uncertain?

I picked the third option. And it was difficult. I lost a bracelet of considerable sentimental importance, I became sweaty and filthy and scratched by shrubs and holly-bushes, I felt coated in dirt and moss and lichen.

But I did make it in the end. Here are some pictures that made up for the somewhat desperate scramble:

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Roussanou from below

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#backofheadselfie

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I made my way back to Kalambaka via a footpath down to Kastraki, and then followed the main road into town. And there I met up with the group and we had lunch together, got ice cream (and internet access), and then took the train back to Athens.

Forgive me, Meteora – you deserve more writing than I have in me right now. You deserve more poetry than I can give. Greece has wrung all my words out of me, it seems.

Perhaps one day I’ll go back. Perhaps I might even go into the monasteries, though I did prefer to see them from a distance more than anything. It’s easier to forget that they aren’t quite what they were in the past – in the 9th, 10th,11th centuries and so on, the flourishing and proliferation of these retreats, places of silence and faith and prayer and majesty. There is flourishing now, but of a different sort – the towns are alive, thriving, pleasant.

I could write more, but that’s a whole other post, I think…

 

Spring

It’s spring in Athens. 

Oh, it’s been spring for quite some time, sure – the weather’s been all variants of wondrous; the wildflowers have been in full bloom – but yesterday was the first time I, personally, felt spring around me.

I’ve had two years experiencing spring in Chicago, its starts and stops, its tentative approaches, until that moment when everything bursts into bloom and the sun beams down over the brightness of it all – and everything seems so suddenly warm and fragrant. It’s that feeling.

Yesterday I was walking back to the apartment from Syntagma Square, and I crossed Amalias to cut across the small park in front of the Zappeion. I happened to look up.

Somehow, I had missed it; perhaps it had happened while I was away in the Peloponnese, where spring seems to have already passed into the golden shallows of summer – but the trees lining the road there were bursting with purple flowers. The petals would float down at intervals; already they had collected in gutters and gullies, already there were fresh leaves on the bottom branches.

As I walked, the heat of the sun seemed to press down on the flowers around me; a green-and-yellow, a pink-and-purple smell rising and sinking and rising again like steam. The air seemed heavy with the nectar, the aroma of countless flowers blinking in the bright, hot sun.

It’s spring in Athens, deep spring, looking straight towards summer. 

It’s the beginning of the end of this program. I’ve started to peer out at that ending and wonder what it will be like. The time has passed so quickly, it seems…

The Mani: Day 7, and the end of it all

May 16, 2014 (Friday) I am on the bus from Gytheio, thinking of this morning’s sunrise – plum-colored smudges on the horizon sharpening, darkening, as from a dip in their silhouettes strong, fiery orange radiates – the sun rises as if drawn up by a mechané, that crane in ancient Greek theatre from which we get the Latin “deus ex machina” – smooth and oiled, practiced, easily. The air warms, the light adds brushstrokes of detail to the forms of the boats and docks; the little island (where Paris and Helen stopped? PLF ends his book looking out at it in wonder…) with its lighthouse, a smaller cousin to the one at Tainaron.

Was that only yesterday?

Breakfast at the hotel is a modest affair; in a pleasant high-ceilinged room with cream-colored walls, sun-lit, I take mine at 7:35 AM. I embarrass myself trying to make conversation with a French couple, but the coffee, bread with butter and marmalade, yogurt thick and sumptuous, sweet custardy cake, orange juice – it all goes down easy.

When I return to my room, the sun on the water, through the slats of the balcony doors, casts a striated, strobe-light effect on the wall above the bed – a reflection? a refraction? the exact opposite of a shadow, it seems. Striking, and to be honest a bit trippy.

We are on the road. How is it that the landscape of the Mani has disappeared so quickly? There is so much green here, a thick pelt, shaggy and well-shaded, clothes the slopes. Already the soil is yellowing, calming from the angry red of the Mani clay, the color of rust, of kindled embers coating pale marble and chipped gray limestone…There are no more winding, ersatz walls of piled-up stones snaking their ways along the rocky terrain; the terraces with their wiry tufts of olive trees hold themselves up, earthen banks stepping up the slopes. This, I realize, is the strangest thing. No more rock walls, no more tower houses.

The road, for short stretches, is lined with eucalyptus trees. I remember a stand of them on the road to Tainaron where I stopped to rest, just outside of Kyparissos, the wind rustling kindly through their hanging leaves…

And at the same time, Taygetos on the left grows steeper, grayer, massively, kelainephés, dark-clouded, nephelegeréta, cloud-gathering, stern and seemingly even more impassable, impossible, impassive.

Sparta seems ever more like only a name, shuffling into view…when I return I will stop here and go to Mystras, finally – fulfilling a promise of sorts.

I wake in the shadow of Arcadian mountains engulfing us in green…the valleys begin to widen as we careen along….static enmeshes the radio. The land grows more horizontal, relaxes incrementally – the Argolid beckons, and Corinth where the rocks rise again in isolated crags and bluffs, sun-warmed and well-wrinkled, crushed into the narrow neck of the Isthmus…bedrock gleams, the very shade of those white-ground lekythoi, perfume vessels, that made the region’s pottery so famous, long ago…

I think about how my love for Greece will always have one of its taproots in the Corinthian landscape, because of my first visit, last June – the memories are sweet like honey, like aching muscles after worthwhile work, like company and companionship and curiosity underneath the golden heat of summer. In its wide-ranging rock basking in the sun, warm and open, in its yellow-white clay, in its well-traveled Isthmus, widely famed…I find myself filled with a peculiar longing not unlike homesickness.

To these memories I have added more, of the Mani, a new root but strong, I think. I will think of gray walls and towers rising up to meet me, of hours spent walking the endless, Tolkien-esque Road, of sunlight scattering over bright seas, high-spirited winds whisking, howling, careening through the air. I will think of sunrises more than sunsets, of that one moon-lit night at the barren end of it all, of rust-red clay, of stones and olive trees fighting for space, of silent stones and narrow cobbled streets, of syglino and bread, of the shrouded shadows of mountains and the waves sounding like sighing, breathing, calling; of breathless exhaustion and the kindness of strangers.

I will remember. I will remember, and one day, I will return.

The Mani: Day 6

May 15, 2014 (Thursday) So I did it. And now I’m at the taverna again, with a glass of fresh orange juice and a syglino omelette on my plate to celebrate.

The path to the lighthouse – who made it? who keeps it? is it self-maintaining, rocks keeping off overgrowth, wind drying everything out until only red dust remains? – anyway, it’s a little more treacherous than I bargained for, but thankfully mostly free of thorns.

It passes a calm little beach below the sanctuary, then a number of what must’ve been rock-cut houses, streets, now very much worn away. Then a ramshackle rock wall, under five feet, encircles the weathered remains of a larger house with a few mosaics, one of which is quite large and well-preserved, though rather simple, I think, in its design. The house seems to have had several rooms, one or two hallways running parallel along the north and south walls, and  perhaps a fountain of some sort, with a few steps leading down (though I couldn’t find any traces of the hydraulic plaster that usually coats these sorts of things). The west side is not so well-preserved, understandably so, since the wind seems stronger on that end…

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Anyway, I saw that on my way back from the lighthouse, having completely overlooked it on my way there.

All this time I’ve been wondering, is the lighthouse deserted? Has it fallen down? Is there still a lighthouse-keeper? (In my mind I imagine the man PLF described fishing as they passed in Panayioti’s caique. Perhaps, I think, he’ll throw me a pear as well…) Who made the path, who made the lighthouse? Have they always been here? Did one come first? (And who excavated here, if at all? (I hope not, not here.) Who did the conservation work – the cement around the edges – on the mosaics? And when? When did people start leaving little remembrances in the anachronistic apse of the sanctuary? Questions, questions, questions…

In any case, I made it there! An hour’s walk at a slow pace – my left ankle, unfortunately, is now in a slightly painful state. The wind is something straight out of Chicago, it seems, funneling fiercely down from the north, northwest, sapping the moisture from my eyes, lips, nose, throat, skin, roaring and whistling, raw sighs unrelenting.

The east side is much gentler, balmy; the sunlight nestles into its surfaces and seems to rest there a while…

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At the lighthouse, buffeted by the winds, I stood on a little makeshift table – a stone slab atop another, well-balanced – at the southern end. I spread my arms, looked out into the white-crested waves.

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And I yawped. Twice I yawped, short, sharp, proud. The winds swallowed the sound of my voice; who knows where they will carry it – perhaps when I return, I’ll hear its distant echo coming back to meet me…

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On the path I saw many of my old friends, those black beetles with white spots on their wingtips, furled and furry antennae – I saw and caught so many of them last June, on the Isthmus… And here I thought I’d imagined the spots.

I will come back here.

I kissed a flat warm pebble and tossed it into the receding waves as I swore – I will come back here. I will approach by the road from Gytheio next time, and here I will meet my younger self, and here I will remember these days.

-later-

My ankle’s worsened slightly. I’m not relishing the thought of the five-hour walk back to Gerolimenas. And even more so, I’ve been struck with homesickness – the isolation, I think, has finally gotten to me. All I want, Bilbo-like, is to be back at home, with the kettle just beginning to whistle…(what am I talking about, I have an electric kettle…)

I feel very much small and forlorn and tired. I feel starved for conversation; to talk to a friend, to a stranger, anyone in English, anything beyond pleasantries.

Ti nea?” “Ola kala!”

I guess this is where the wanderlust ends, for now. I was ill-prepared for this journey, but I made it. And now? Perhaps this is what vacations are for – to make oone ready o go back home again.

So I pack my things up for a quick getaway, and head out to the parking area right before the sanctuary. This place doesn’t draw a crowd, but it does draw groups of three or four cars a day. After a few failed tries at soliciting conversation, a very nice German couple mentions they are heading to Vatheia, and I manage to stammer out, “Oh! Would you, um, would you maybe –”

And there the woman cuts me off with a smile. “Would you like to come with?”

I could’ve cried.

I limped back up to the house and grabbed my bags, looked the room over one last time, and then left. Goodbye, I said in my head, to Tainaron, to this point where the seas and winds clash, to the lighthouse, to the stones, to the taverna and the kind woman who rented me the room and cooked me my food. And I got in the car, and we drove off.

They went a whole 10 km out of their way, bless their wondrous souls, to drop me off in Gerolimenas. And I was struck by how a half-hour car ride can cover what took me over five hours to walk. We pass the spring and basin that I was so grateful for just the day before. Now, half a dozen cows are drinking and grazing around it, idling away the time in the late afternoon sun.

They let me out at the miniscule town square, tucked into the corner of the bay. I forgot to ask them their names – it doesn’t matter, I suppose; I’m just so very much grateful to those kind strangers.

Alongside the square is parked the bus to Gytheio. I think it leaves soon. I might as well take it there, spend one night, and in the morning, take the bus to Athens.

And this is what I do. At around 5:30, the bus driver, an old man in slacks and a tweed jacket emerges out of a neighboring hotel café, looking somewhat rumpled, as if just woken from a nap. He starts the bus and begins to settle in. I hurry over. “Gytheio?” I ask. He stares, then nods. Near the corner of his right eye is a fleshy growth. His thumbnails are long and yellow. I try not to stare, focusing my gaze on the few gray hairs combed flat on his head. He lets me on the bus. “Gytheio??” he asks, loudly. His voice is scratchy, phlegmy. I nod. “Gytheio???” he asks again, louder. “Nai,” I say, nodding again.

He taps a machine that prints out a receipt. Six euros to Gytheio. I pay and take my seat. The front of the bus, around the driver, is festooned with fake flowers and nested coffee cups.

We leave Gerolimenas, picking up a few more passengers on the way. We stop at places I remember – the little church where I stopped to rest and berate myself for choosing to walk all the way, the mini mart with the two German Shepherds living on its roof, barking at any strangers who pass. At Pyrgos Dhirou, the driver stops to buy a pack of cigarettes, and his phlegmy coughs resound intermittently throughout the hour and a half ride.

The two women also on the bus then hold sprigs of some aromatic plant, one I’ve smelled before, out in the countryside – sage, perhaps? The scent wafts through the bus, mingling greenly with grayness of secondhand smoke…one woman, with a whole plant, roots and all, gets off at Kalou, at the gas station.

At Areopolis we turn east, a pass through the mountains. My journey began with this road, in reverse.

I get off at Gytheio, find a hotel for the night.

-a little later-

I am watching the sun set from the balcony, facing east – so more like watching the sky darken. Straight ahead, the Laconian finger of the Peloponnese gleams a faded lilac, looking for all the world like a matte painting pinned against the sky. A few gulls wheel lazily up above.

This is a nice place and I wish I could stay longer, but I am ready to go back…

The Mani: Day 5

5/14 (Wednesday) (what?) (already?) I made it to Kokkinogeia! …I think. I’m at Tainaron, in any case. Five hours, forty-five minutes, including some time spent wandering in Vatheia.

Now I’m at a little taverna, the “Akron Tainaron,” on a small hill near the shore. It feels like the end of the known world, a nowhere place, the restaurant at the end of the universe, perhaps. It’s by the sanctuary to Poseidon Tainaros, the “Death Oracle,” all of it. No English here, I’m afraid, but the wind is nice and strong, I’m drinking the most American victory drink possible, I think, the restaurant has rooms to let, and I know enough Greek to rent one. So all is well.

I left Geroliménas at 6:15 AM. The sun was already rising, and hell, it was breathtaking. “Dawn’s rosy fingers…” I think I finally understand that formulaic line.

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Cape Tainaron, in the distance...

Cape Tainaron, in the distance…

10 km to Vatheia!

10 km to Vatheia!

A few words about Vatheia. As you approach from the west, it rises up on a rocky spire, seemingly separate from the surrounding heights, looking almost out of place, with towers like great gray eyries , broken walls clawing at the air above.

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The road curves steeply up, around, around, and finally…through.

It is a dead place. It feels abandoned – it is abandoned, but recently so. It seems like people simply gave up on this place, like it could’ve been left behind only weeks ago – if not for the overgrowth, the rotting wood, the rust… I saw a two coats on a coatrack through a door hanging open, cloth now almost shroud-like, seeming almost like apparitions…I walked into what must’ve been a bar, cloudy bottles of Coke and orange soda haphazardly gathering clods of dust, cigarette butts moldering in an ashtray on a rickety rusting table. There was a sink behind the bar, a bottle of dishwashing soap laying in a collection of crumbled plaster.

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I came to a room with a bed, window slightly ajar. The doorway was slightly shorter than I am – I had to duck. The adjoining room had a bedframe and a bookcase, plastered walls, light filtering thinly through the window. There was a kitchen and a small bathroom, garbage can still with a plastic bag…

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There was rust, there were weeds, there gates hanging loosely like rotten teeth, doors fallen in.

A few buildings – can I call them houses, even? – looked at least partially lived-in, judging from the fresh padlocks on the doors. Perhaps people come back in the summer; I don’t know. But I couldn’t tell. Stairs petered out into nothingness, overcome by earth and disintegrated mortar, reeds, weeds, thorns. The tops of the towers stared out raw and ragged with empty eyes.

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Was this the very same place that PLF extolled for its hospitality? Which tower was it on whose roof he ate dinner with Vasilio and her family, where he “felt as if he wanted to stay forever”? Was this truly the same town?

It was around 9:30 or 10 in the morning, and I was beginning to feel uneasy. I pulled the rusty metal chain to ring the bell at the church, well-maintained, in the empty town square. It made a pitiful voiceless noise. No answer. The stones seemed to swallow all noise. Even the buzzing of insects was muffled.

I didn’t want to see any more of it. The silent waiting heaviness was too much – “Come back, come back!” it seemed to say. “Bring them all back, make it the way it was once, when we were alive…we are waiting, we are waiting, we are waiting!”

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I left. Some distance down the road, while the towers were still in sight, a dog half-herded, half-chased me away. “I’m leaving, I’m leaving,” I muttered. And after that, I didn’t look back.

I was beset by flies in the hot sun. Traveling light meant that I only had two and a half sets of clothes stuffed inside my tiny backpack, and so two days of sweat in my clothes, jacket stained and faded – that must’ve been it. There I was, walking on a road littered with dung from cows, donkeys, mules, sheep, goats – and they wanted to perch on me.

You can get used to lots of things after a while. Maybe it was the heat, the sun, the weariness in my limbs, but eventually, I began to talk to them, curse at them, call them “Socrates and his disciples.” “Ah,” I said out loud, “you’ve got another one! There’s Plato, and that one, you can be Xenophon. Alcibiades, making trouble as usual…that one is Critias, meaner than the others…”

It was about this same time that I named my two bags: the larger, Mavromichalis; the smaller, Mourtzinos (which means “little bulldog”) – names of two famous families that feuded in “the good old days,” so to speak…

At some point, as the road leaned toward the shore again and I could see Tainaron bulging up ahead like a whale’s back, I came across a Greek couple at the roadside filling water jugs from a pipe gushing water into a basin – a spring! The sound of it was exquisite. “Kalimera!” I said. Fumbling with my bags, I produced my water bottle. “Parakalo?” I asked, gesturing toward the water. The man smiled and nodded. I took two huge gulps from my water bottle and filled up the rest, drank some more, and filled it up again. “Efharisto poli, geia sas!” I said, smiling. And I continued on my way.

Greece, and walking around Greece, is making me friendlier, I think – I’ve been greeting people as I pass, whenever I can, including to a grave-looking old Greek gentleman in a beekeeper’s bonnet, who looked up, surprised, and said, “Geia, geia,” gruffly as I went on my way. I don’t know. Perhaps I’m simply becoming starved for meaningful human contact of any sort….

In any case, the wind picked up as I headed farther and farther south – the land smoothed out into gentle hillsides, tall and bulging, traced with the rubble walls that formed terraces for cultivation, long ago. My pace quickened and I smiled – because as I walked downhill, the last leg of my journey – Tainaron came looming, bouncing into view with every step. The wind whipped my hair up and lifted my spirits. I was there!

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And now I’ve ordered something called “maridha” – which as it turns out, is a plate full of small white-fleshed fish, fried whole, heads and everything, just like my grandma does them… I suppress a wave of homesickness.

It’s quite windy here. I can see why Corinth was – and still is – so important; no one would want to sail around this cape in bad weather, if this is what it’s like even on a clear day like today.

The exhaustion is already fading from my feet, it seems.

-later-

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The thing about the “Sanctuary of Poseidon Tainaros,” as it’s signposted. I’m pretty sure it was converted into a church at some point – there’s a clearly later apse added onto the east end, and barrel vaulting, too, all in mortar and rubble with some pieces of reused masonry (spolia!). The north wall has the expected ashlar (big and rectangular) blocks, limestone, but the rest of it seems like there were repairs, it’s mostly fallen down…and it doesn’t seem to have been a temple in the traditional sense. That is, I couldn’t identify any pronaos/naos/opisthodemos plan (this is technical stuff, don’t worry about it – the three room structure of a typical classicalish temple), no columns, no altar. True, a sanctuary doesn’t necessarily mean a temple, but it was all very perplexing.

You enter from the west. In the back, through a small doorway, there are what seem like pieces of small columns, and a flat slab of rock. People have left little mementoes there – tickets to museums and archaeological sites, brightly colored buttons, shells, bits of cloth, odds and ends. It was oddly touching – here at the end of all things, visitors have left pieces of themselves, of their stories. I left my bus ticket.

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The “Death Oracle” seemed more promising, though there’s also not much remaining. A path leads down from the sanctuary, sloping slightly eastwards, gently down to a pebbly beach, then turns into a rocky overhang – a shallow cave, darkened by smoke stains and the shadow of fig trees. There are three distinct indentations in the rock. The largest one has the remains of limestone doorposts in a rubble wall; the middle one is small with a tiny pool, still and green with algae; the third is narrower and taller. The sound of the waves and wind filters through, softened and mixed with the rustling of reeds. There is a stillness here. The ground is damp – perhaps the sea sinks underneath, and bubbles up in the dim little pool and in the earth…

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There were other structures here, built around it, cut into the rock, I think – it’s so hard to tell; limestone wears away so easily, and the winds and waters here are strong.

-later-

I wake from a nap at 10:30 PM. There’s a full moon tonight, an unearthly glow about the cape…a cruise liner ablaze out in the distance, lights flaring out in revelry, into the semidark. I can see the outlines of the coasts, clearly. The light is pale and cold and the wind is fierce.

I would not want to be in Vatheia in such light.

Winters here must be terrible. I, in my little bed of fragrant white sheets, cocooned in a fuzzy blanket of the type that seems widespread in Greek hotels and guesthouses – I can hardly imagine what the winters must be like, if even now the wind shrieks through the walls, through every crack and doorjamb. No visitors in the winter – places like this go by high/low, on/off seasons. Storms barreling in, watery Eurus or Notus casting down their burdens, moaning and screaming, seas cresting in great froths of spray, gurgling and spitting, each current its own Scylla, its own Charybdis – the salt crusting everything, the woodwork, the steel, the concrete, the stone…all of it trembles.

The Mani: Days 3 and 4

May 12, 2014 (Monday) Gerolimenas!

Dear Future Kim, please don’t ever try to walk 24 km or whatever in one day again. It is, for the most part, a rather miserable experience. Took me seven and a half hours (Google told me four and a half…hah! I guess I walk slower than average.) At around 1:30, I shared my lunch – a sandwich I had packed surreptitiously at breakfast, syglino (a Maniot specialty! pork salted and smoked with herbs and orange peel) and cheese – with a hungry cat who approached me with kitten-eyes and curious meows.

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Several people stopped to ask me if I needed a ride, but stubbornly, I refused. I told a few of them where I was going – Geroliménas – and they would offer more persistently. A few said variations on “Don’t afraid!” But still, I said no. There was a even an American man who stopped – about the third or fourth person, I think – as I was on my way out of Kita, around 5 km from Gerolimenas, who said that he had seen me walking two hours before…Oh, nice American man, I thought to myself after I’d refused his offer of a ride. You don’t even know.

The last person was an older Greek man with a faded green cap and sun-worn face squinting kindly out under dark eyebrows. He came up in the opposite direction on a dusty moped. “Páme!” he said, patting the seat behind him. “Páme, Yeroliména, páme!” I wondered how he knew where I was going. I imagined the news spreading at gas stations ahead – “There’s a crazy American girl walking all the way to Geroliménas!” “Why would anyone ever want to do that?” “Crazy, crazy, crazy.”

He seemed crestfallen, almost insulted, when I shook my head no and said,  “Efharisto, geia sas!” before turning away.

[People are kind.]

But stubbornly, I pressed on, mountains to my left, sea – the Messenian Gulf – veering away on my right, road stretching ahead, seemingly endless. I became too tired to even hold a conversation with myself. As much as rough overland hiking, offroad ascents and descents, struggling through thick and thorny underbrush – as much as these things tire me out, at least there is a bit of a cerebral element to picking out paths, exploring, choosing.

That’s why, Future Kim, I’m telling you, don’t do this again. The road was flat, with minimal shade, and frankly, for the most part, even a little boring. Oh, when it wasn’t, the view was phenomenal, but these were glimpses only.

(Here are a few of those glimpses.)

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out in the distance, you can see the Tigani - the "frying pan"

out in the distance, you can see the Tigani – the “frying pan”

(Here’s me near the end of the day’s journey.)

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And now I am so, so tired.

I made it here, though. Giannis, the owner of the hotel, showed me up – what a mess I must’ve looked, a day’s worth of sweat and grime caked on me! – he’s given me the front (bigger, sea view) room rather than the smaller, cheaper room I’d booked. And for the same price, too!

[People are kind.]

First thing I did once he left was crumple to the floor in a heap of exhaustion. After a few minutes, I took off my boots, drank some water, and ran a bath for myself.

I drifted. Bliss. Now a nap, and then I think I’ll hunt down some dinner…. I’m modifying my plans, though, I think. It was a silly stubborn idea to walk here from Areopolis, but hell, I did it. Tomorrow…what should tomorrow hold? I’ll see how I feel after this nap. I’ve got two days here. Should be wondrous.

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The Mani: Day 2

May 11, 2014. Sunday. (still Areopolis) Gosh. Sweet exhaustion… Today is hotter than yesterday.

I started off the day with a visit to the museum housed in a restored tower house, and exploring the abandoned one across the street.

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And then I hiked down the trail to Diros Bay, across a small headland, and up the road.

The Vlychada/Glyfada Caves. Lord. They were amazing, amazing, amazing – I shouldn’t be shocked anymore wheever Greece takes my breath away by now – it’s happened so many times; I should be used to it. But unfailingly, every time, I am.

Kapetán!” The man at the little boat beckoned to me out of the group of visitors. Feeling bulky with the orange life jacket buckled awkwardly around me, I stepped into the boat, all the way to the front (!), where he gestured for me to sit in the middle of the narrow bench. Later on, all through the ride, he would call out cheerfully, “Kapetán, okay? Bravo, bravo. Polla kala!

I felt as if the twelve euros I had paid up at the ticket office were the equivalent of the two obols’ fare into the Underworld, and this cheerful, mustachioed man, slightly pudgy, was our ferryman, our Charon on the still dead waters, clear and breathlessly silent.

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Expertly, he punted our little gondola smoothly through passages where even I had to duck my head, where if I’d reached out just a hand’s breadth out of the boat, I could’ve trailed my fingers on the damp and living stone as we passed…

No movemata!” our Charon would call out at intervals – any shifting rocked the boat. Staring straight ahead, gaping at the walls, the ceiling – the only evidence I had of the others in the boat were their voices, loud and quiet at turns; otherwise I might have been moving automatically, floating, through these hushed halls… The chill lay damp upon my skin.

Lit by electric lamps, the caves gleamed, a dull wet shine worn smooth, still growing, an ever-present drip-drip, soft and languid, almost muffled, even. Illuminated, they gave off creamy yellows, serpentine greens, soft golds, reds like blood or rust…

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The boat came to a stop, beached on a subterranean shore. It was a ten-minute walk to the exit, through more quiet, magnificent passageways. At the end of it, the outside world glimmering brightly ahead, I turned back and looked behind me.

I felt like Orpheus, like somehow I had perhaps lost something dear. Or perhaps I had gained something. I don’t know.

And now I feel tired, as if worn out by wonder.

The Mani: Day 1

A good map, Patrick Leigh Fermor's book on the Mani, my notebook. And a spirit of adventure!

A good map, Patrick Leigh Fermor’s book on the Mani, my notebook. And a spirit of adventure!

May 10, 2014. Saturday.

Well, I am here in Areopolis. Six hours, almost, on the bus that left Athens at 6:30 AM.

I’m sitting in a café, dim, cool, a bit subterranean, drifting in a miasma of secondhand smoke from the neighboring tables.

The bus ride. I woke to Taygetos rearing up, snow-capped, almost absurdly so, slopes dappled with cloud-shadow, dimmed by morning haze. The landscape had shifted, morphed – the rugged rosy yellows of Corinth, of Argos, the isolated outcrops of rock jutting high; these had grown smoother, grayer – though still warm, and greener, taller, more frequent. (The Latin crebrior here gets what I mean across, I think, more than the English “more frequent” or “more crowded” can…)

After Gytheio, its salt-harbor smell wafting in glimpses, bright and sharp – after Gytheio, the architecture grows perceptibly stonier, more…Maniot, one would say. Up becomes an option; parapets with windows like wary eyes peek out between, above tangled trees. Huge crags thrust up into the sky, thickly furred in thorns, in brambles, in prickly pear. We drive up through deep clefts, heading west – a pass through the mountains….

[As I write this, a tiny iridescent skink has crawled its swiveling way past my foot, seeking cooler darkness behind the next table.]

“The narrow streets of Areopolis,” writes Patrick Leigh Fermor – I understand, I think. It feels like the quiet lull, summery stillness of a small place, small but proud. Here, of course, was the domain of Petrobey Mavromichalis, an important figure in the Greek war of independence – his statue stands proud and tall in Athanaton Square.

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When I got off the bus, I saw three brown donkeys grazing in the front yard of a house nearby; a dusty pickup truck loaded with strings of garlic, soil still clinging to their roots…. And just like that, I know I am now somewhere else entirely.

“The vintage vacation,” writes Augustine in book 9 of the Confessions. “How can I describe it?” I’m paraphrasing, but that same feeling engulfs me here – how, indeed.

Traveling alone is hard and easy at the same time. This is an exercise in fear – in being alone, which is scary, at least for me. I’m excited – it’s all real now; this is a vacation, but this begins a week truly and fully to myself. Am I afraid? Of course. When I stood on the rocky edge near Delphi and looked down, the gorge yawning, seeming to deepen in the diminishing light, darkness spreading – that was fear, and I could taste in on my breath, feel it in my pulse, the buzzing at the base of my skull – that was fear.

This feeling tastes the same – a risk, a beginning, a test of my own self. I believe I will return somewhat changed.

This feels like a pilgrimage. To what or to whom, I do not know. I’m sure I will find out in due course. In the meantime, I think I will send a postcard home. And then…I will see what this week – no, not even that far – what tomorrow, simply, will bring. I’ve forgotten the verse- somewhere in Matthew 6…

-later-

It was an accidental hike – almost 5 hours, it ended up being. I got stuck going overland, paths much too overgrown…but I made it to Diros Bay, where the Vlychada/Glyfada caves are (I’ll be visiting them tomorrow for real)! There, in the rain, red clay smearing onto my boots, my legs, water soaking through my scarf and jacket as I made my way finally along the shore – there, I felt invincible. I climbed steps to an abandoned house on a red rocky bluff, and I yelled – I YAWP-ed – out into the rain shadow.

“I sound my barbaric yawp over the roofs of the world,” goes the line.

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It was glorious.

Coming back, though. The rain stopped, the sun, sinking leisurely on its course to set, broke through in that watery after-shower way. The air was alive, trembling with birdsong, with rain-smell, and the spicy oregano scent of crushed greenery…

I followed the road this time, the paved one – but turned back; it was turning south instead of north. Doubling back, I explored around until I found a trail that looked promising. It was an old stone path, stepped, hidden from the main road, descending into damp greenery, the sides of the ravine carved smooth by a now-departed river. The path bridged it. There I stood, in the breathy silence-not-silence, birds and bees and the rustle of what seemed like a million grasshoppers, the drip-drip of rainwater hanging like morning dew, the smell that sounded green. As nonsensical as it seems, this melding of senses is the only way I can describe it. I breathed it in.

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I looked up behind me: the rain shadow pressing up against Taygetos’ hazy peaks, swirling and rising like leavening dough.

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The path was there the whole way up, good cobbles underfoot – but it was hard going. I babbled to myself – “The Lord is my shepherd, I shall not want” “Though I walk in the valley of the shadows…” – through thorns and prickings from burrs and holly-branches and wild thistles. “Hand at the level of your eyes!” – how much more relevant this advice was to my life than I would ever have thought! Spiderwebs and spiders dwelt at my face level. Tall grasses dampened me up to my waist; above, thorns plucked and pricked at my skin through my clothes – later on, I found one that had stuck deep into my side, and had to pluck it out…. “Only the penitent shall pass!” – several times I ducked underneath webs and spiders, feeling like I was running the gauntlet.

The path wound its way up the ridge and finally widened into dirt and remains of different paving – bigger, paler flagstones. It was fenced on both sides. In a pasture to my right, a flash of something caught my eye – I turned and saw four horses and one foal staring back at me, as frozen as I was. My breath stopped. I took a step – and they burst into motion, springing away in a clatter of hooves. From a few horse-steps away, they stared at me, shivering. I stared back, hardly daring to breathe.

[I am afraid of horses.]

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This picture is blurry and indistinct. Forgive me, I was very much afraid.

I swallowed and took a deep breath, then averted my gaze and walked slowly past, as smoothly as I could. Once a safe distance away, I let out my breath in a choked laugh of relief.

Walking, walking, walking. I made it back eventually, soaked through, pants daubed in red, jacket festooned with burrs, pollen, spiderwebs, thorns, boots scratched and muddied and more, legs and feet feeling leaden and just as malleable. Aching. I came to Areopolis at last from the east; I’d left it from the west.

I regret nothing. Today is only the first day and I’m tired as hell but it has been amazing, and I can’t wait for more.

pothos/a thought from May 1, 2014

πόθος

“What’s around the next corner? and the next one? and the one after that?”

πόθος, this is that yearning that Jonathan Hall pinned as Alexander the Great’s motivation, or one of them, at least.

A reaching curiosity, a longing.

We’ve come across this word in this course (these two courses?) three times now. One: in the Homeric Hymn to Demeter, both mother and daughter diminish because of πόθος for each other; they suffer in their lack, their unrealized longing. Two: in Frogs, Dionysus feels a πόθος for Euripides, an overwhelming craving. And now three: Alexander in his conquests, his travels, an endless desire to keep going, until either he or the land ended (he ended first).

Each one, slightly different, but the same underneath.

I understand that feeling, I think. In Alexander’s case most of all.

For my interim break, my plan is to head down to the Mani peninsula, the central finger of the Peloponnese, wild and untamed, frontierland, rocky, mountainous, unforgiving, isolated. Those are the epithets I’ve read of it.

I want to walk there as much as I can. I want to go to the tip of Cape Tainaron, the southernmost part of the mainland, of Europe proper, they say. I want to see where the land ends, to go until the earth stops before I do. There’s a fleeting immortality in such victory – a dream to chase, a feeling that touches you and then is gone, and that little taste of it fuels πόθος, to keep going, keep pressing ever onwards.

I want to see the towers, dream of the bloody feuds between families there. I want to scramble over sunlit stones and feel the earth solid beneath my soles, look up and have the outline of myself cut into the sky.

The late author Patrick Leigh Fermor, who made his home in Kardamyli, in the Mani, and wrote a book on the region, traveled to Constantinople on foot from the Hook of Holland when he was eighteen.

I’m twenty years old and I’ve never even considered the possibility of walking that far. There have always been things pulling me back – retrace your steps, don’t get lost, whatever you do, you have to be back in time. I’ve never been free from timetables, from schedules, from deadlines. This is no different – the interim break is bounded on either side by obligations.

And yet it is different.

The dislocation of relocation – moving to Greece for nearly three months – has set everything within a different context. Nothing is holding me back from doing this but my mindset, and even that is changing…